no one is coming to save you

i am tired of writing poems about a feeling

that does not go away

a feeling that feels temporarily 

satisfied when i know he is there

to kiss me and love me since i 

can not do those things myself

or at least, not well enough to 

cure me of restless anxiety that

is uncomfortable to live in

i beg a higher power to save me

and when i hear the silence i desire

i run to him 

instead


He will save me.


and i will be happy giving up this fight

with myself, maybe even

eventually get married

and have his children who

will grow up to be just like

their father and nothing like

me

-entirely too selfish 

and naive or maybe

just plain stupid to still believe

i could ever outrun a feeling

that does not go away


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